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Name: S H A N A N A
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Birthday: 4/14/1986
Interests: God, family, friends, vintage stuff, artwork, reading, writing, tetris, tattoos, piercings, coffee, painting, photography, cute shoes, fake glasses, break dancing, spanish rice, music, ddr, saving old flyers, shows, learning new things
Expertise: karate chopping, make fart noises, laughing, giving high fives, having fun, dancing, smiling
Occupation: Student
Industry: Hospitality
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AIM:  LETSMAKEOUTTT
Member Since:
11/20/2003
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| Obama for president. Amazing. There were so many people i had talked to this week that said if Obama didn't win they were giving up on America and Politics. Then there are always those people who talk about moving out of the country, even though they probably never will.
i was recently in Chicago, (i never update this thing) it was a total blast. ALMOSTTTT made me want to move back, almost. I saw a lot of faces i didn't get to see last time and some i just got to see some more. I've kinda been going through a rough patch of life but i'm trying my best to shape it up.
i've been having tons of conversations with close friends and family and i think i've come to the conclusion that if i don't get my act together this month....i may be moving BACK to Chicago. ugh. reasons are: i'd be able to save money to actually buy another laptop, i'd be able to travel more, i'd be able to have my own place this time, i'd be able to get a car (if i wanted), i'd kinda like to be living closer to my dad. (he's still having a hard time with me living states away) just other reasons...
there are always reasons as to why i DON'T want to move back but i won't really get into those. I've also thought about me moving back to go to school for cosmo. (so be around for a year) and then maybe save enough money to move to San Fran cause i've always wanted to do that.
but also with Chicago i'd love to start doing my own shows again...man i miss that more then almost anything. it's kinda hard to convince people here that you aren't retarded and know what you are doing. ugh again.
when i came back from Chicago i just felt kinda in the dumps. I let small things bug me, like "friends" not really calling/texting to tell me about shit. it just made me really wonder if some of these people out here are really my friends. it was a big difference in emotions compared to Chicago. Then again it may have just been that those Chicago people NEVER get to see me which was why there was so much love when i was there. eh.
I just have so much to think about but one thing is for sure, i can't keep asking my parents to help me out. it's not good for anyone and no one can afford it.
i just got a new job at Virgin Megastore. ha. the pay is complete shit. I just spent this morning e-mailing my resume to a million places. i need something else or a completely different job, quick.
yep.
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| ...i'm thinking it is more then what it is.
tonight i had a few different thoughts.
it's time to kick in gear. | | |
| i have a skylight and no other windows. you know that feeling of going camping and waking up in your really hot sweaty tent? that's how i've been waking up each day...with my skylight bringing in ALL the sun. so it's hard for me to go back to sleep.
yesterday felt like a waste of an evening. i went to my manager's house so he could tattoo my arm but he didn't really seem like he wanted to tattoo molars on my arm and didn't want to look it up. ha. so he touched up the letter F on my right middle finger. we drank beer and laughed. i watched him tattoo pizza on his toe knuckles. i laughed even harder. then i went home.
didn't get to hang out with like 6 different people who called/texted all night. missed out on my chance to hang out with dream boat moped boy. meh. whatever. there is always today.
sometimes i read too much into things. i let my girl side get carried away with fantasy. not like the mariah carey song. man i love that song. (fantasy)
today will be filled with fun and friends. my two friend f's.
booze and bands. my two favorite b's.
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| ...so i think i've met this really really awesome dude. we had a hang/date on wednesday into thursday and it was just so awesome in every way. he's one of those people that you feel like you've known forever. nothing is to weird or ackward...but it doesn't feel old or tired either.
he actually use to live in chicago for a while and is into the whole music scene. he fixes computers and builds websites. he buys, fixes, and sells mopeds. he left thursday night to go to michigan to ride mopeds with his friends, they do it every year, then he's stopping ohio for a wedding and coming back NEXT monday. uhh. then he's gonna give me a call and we're suppose to build a fort and ride mopeds to coney island. even though i explained i've never rode one.
man i'm giddy. ha! this is going to sound even worse. ha, i wanted to text me yesterday but tried my best not to. i want to today but i'm not going to. i know he's with his friends and having a blast and i don't really want to bug him. i know i'll hear from him probably like tuesday or something. plus i know he feels the same way i do. right when it go to that point where i needed to decide to either head home or stay the night the only thing that was keeping me from staying was that i didn't have an American Apparel shirt to wear to work. so he was nice enough to let me borrow the ONLY a.a. shirt he had. also, most dudes the next day wouldl have just said BYE! to the chick who stayed the night and not get up but he got up too and walked me to the train and really gave me this long hug that clearly was telling me he wished we could stay in bed longer. we also talked about how awesome the night was going and all that cute lame mushy shit.
it's nice. it's nice to meet some one that you actually want to date...because for me, boyfriends were always out of the picture. (that was my thought for the past almost 2 years) i mean unless i felt like i met a good "match" but i'm for sure not going on anymore dates while he gone or anything like that. no one can compare to his awesomeness. ha! i'm a loser.
what a cutie. what a cutie. what a cutie.
can't it be next monday yet?
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| so my tummy kinda hurts. it feels like it's really full and i can't quit make it go away. on occasion i will be a weird like air bubble feeling right below my rib cage. on occasion my kidneys will feel like knives are stabbing them but that's mostly gone away. i sound like a sickling.
in other news, i got a job today. i now work for American Apparel. i hope i like it..i KNOW i'll like the discount. zing and the every so often FREE clothes, PLUS i get benefits since i'll be full time.
i like Brooklyn a lot and i've already met quite a few awesome people but still i miss quite a few people back in Chicago. I don't really miss Chicago itself. I just felt so over it before i left. I was explaining to my roommates and new friends that yeah i miss people back in Chicago but it's not like i'm NOT going to see them again. I know I'll seem them at some point...i wish a few would visit me now. wah wah....i can also feel a few slip away OR maybe i'm nuts but in all honesty some people haven't bothered to text,call,im,message or e-mail to see how i was doing. i've gone out of my way to contact quite a few people but then again what else did i really have to do here when i'm not working?
i've seen quite a few good shows and still many more to attend. i got invited to some parties this weekend. i'm not going to go all out like i did last weekend. like i explained to another friend of mine....i know people do Coke everywhere but in Brooklyn, well nyc really, they are just so OPEN about it. right in the middle of a party...so weird.
i do feel like i made a good choice to move. for the most part i'm really happy to be here and i've already got to see some friends from back home and i already saw some celebs. i'm still vegetarian but i'm thinking i should start taking some vitamins. i haven't been eating as wide of a range of food here as i was in Chicago which i think may be part of the reason i've been feeling so weird lately. i'm also thinking about cutting dramatically back on drinking or stopping for a while just cause. i've also started to think a lot about starting to go running. i just need to DO it.
i just feel out of shape. | | |
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